Samesies! High five?

God Im tired and trying to pretend this is easy.

You might be on to something here. I may have to put Schindler's List on repeat for the rest of the month to keep me somber.

Yeah, I think that's why I feel so guilty afterwards, just the weight of that sin and selfishness that I willing choose to give into (even after I had a voice in my head that said, "don't do that")



I haven't been real tempted yet, but the weekend is upon us and when I usually fail. I plan on reading the Bible or a Bible study as soon as I get an urge. I'll definitely add that reading to my list

ETA: I'm doing nofap. Shoulda read the op first.

(Am I dq'd if it's been nearly two years since I have?)

I posted on the first page in the other thread, then lost the thread. Married, so I fall under that setup. NO FAP

So Im not a religious guy. That said, I respect those who are and actually feel that there needs to be more religion in the country. My wife grew up in an extremely religious household (7th Day Adventist). The fellowship, the no TV or shopping on Saturdays, the food restrictions (no pork or shellfish) etc was fine by me. She was sent off to boarding school at 13 years old. She never got to do sports, her mom was well meaning but no sleepovers ever as a kid, always told her that she wouldn't be able to do something even as an adult if there was something new she wanted to try (like hammering a nail or moving a dresser). And dang if the constant hounding of sin sin sin didnt ingrain in her to then rear its head once we were relation-ing. She has embarrassing horror stories of her mom walking in on her going down on her then boyfriend when she was like 20 years old and how she was berated as a slut who no guy would ever respect. That type of thing. BJ's are still not something she really go for because it was beaten into her so hard. When we were dating and she checked my history it was like I had strangled a puppy. Porn is still not something she will ever consider. She says, and I believe her, that she has never masturbated. It totally messed with her stability especially once she was processing that life can be different than all that after her mom died. When we have sex, its f-ing amazing and when we were younger had plenty of frequency here and there but always book-ended with months at a time where its just not something that's on her mind.

She has mostly reprogrammed but all that stunted her sexual growth, balance and maturity to a relationship taxing point that I still battle with but of course if I bring it up, its that Im harping on that subject again. So me being a guy, found other avenues of... release. Not really proud of it but also don't feel totally unjustified either. Ive grown and matured - plus lost my drive with working two jobs and remodeling a house, plus Im now on low T therapy (and never getting sex anyway for so many years its just shut me down) and am working on being a better husband which is why I  decided to try this out as jumping on the net to take care of business has definitely become a habit. Not an addiction, but just part of my normal day. Havent told the wife Im doing the no-fap because she would freak out to think that I do that every day or so.

Just kind of my story on identifying and maybe refuting the religious aspect some of you are using as motivation for this. And of course I know not all religions and families and experiences are like my wife's.

Halfway through day 5 and still going strong!

I'm out

What, a new thread?  I was in on the first one, or so I thought...  Facebook is also blocked on the pi-hole.....

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HOLD THE LINE MY BROTHERS!!!!!!!

I told my wife about the challenge at the beginning of the month. Normally we have sex at least twice a week, occasionally more, occasionally less due to my changing work schedule, kiddo, etc. In five days we've had sex three times and I got a blowjob. Tonight we hired a babysitter, I took her out and she had a couple drinks. She's currently passed out after some great sex. Life is good.

Day 5, still in it. I'm extremely determined.

It’s definitely coming to the forefront of the mind a bit more.

Instead of dwelling on that, I’m just shooting more guns. This time at night, and this time on steel.

Well still going well here I’m alone in a hotel room and didn’t know what to do with my hands so I tried to super glue them together to keep them occupied.

Day 5 and you're already having raunchy dreams? Oh man.

As I stated elsewhere in the thread, one of the many reasons I’m doing this is because I just as much as anyone else need to.

Handy (!) tip:

Get out among people. Get outside.

If you're stuck inside, alone, with your own fight and no consequences, you'll probably lose. There's a saying "If you have something to fall back on, you probably will."

(Plus, unless you're a true freak, you ain't gonna be doing some nasty in public or in front of your friends.)

PS: Do we have an updated @ of all the people that are in under deadline, and which class they're competing in? Accountability with seeing your name up in lights and all that.

PPS: My "outside" day had me finally go to the range to zero in an ACOG and an Olight laser that are on the same little .22 rifle. I was more frustrated with THAT than anything else: I kept chasing the impacts from one optic to another. "The laser is dead on, I'll move the ACOG crosshairs to cover that point of aim... Whattheheck... now the laser shifted... rezero to ACOG, twist the laser to its crosshair... why is it three inches high now?" I think I've determined that the mount on the laser is wiggly, but noticed my tripod head was wobbly later as well. Spent 4 mags of CCI Standard trying to chase two corresponding green dots around paper before deciding I should just come back and start over with a better rifle rest/bag, strip the laser off, start from scratch. (This is a task which usually takes me about five rounds. I'm blaming China light mount and wiggly tripod (and possibly my lack of planning) for right now.  :) But I got outside and had a lovely day not worrying about anything much!

That is a sweet gun.

Good luck man, and don't give in.

I'm starting to feel like I am packing an overstuffed coin purse.

Wife and I are both home tomorrow.   So relief is possible!

I honestly don't think we would have stayed married if it weren't for solo time.   Her drive does not match mine in any way.

I just had a super intense dream about a girl I went to high school with. She was homecoming queen and probably doesn't even know I exist. I talked to her one time after she won.

That was 25 years ago
This is gonna be rough.

6 days into NNN and nothing different yet. Sleeping has been a bit better though.

I really need to get my T rechecked.  I don't usually have dreams like that about random women from my distant past until 2 or 3 weeks in.

And she’s really quiet!

Wish Arf had some kind of video hosting solution.

I'm gonna go ahead and assume that I'm in on this, OP since i did post in your now-titles Unofffcial thread on page 1. Married, so no Fap. Haven't had sex with the wife yet this month either, but it's Saturday, so I may get lucky tonight

I don’t think it counts if you wait til she drinks some wine and falls asleep first

:)

Oddly enough I'm not missing porn/fapping yet. I assumed this would be more difficult to break old habits.  Wife has a surgery coming up next week so I may default to previous habits as stress relief, but I'm hoping to stay the course.  
So...details on the rifle in the vid clip?
@narphenal

B&T SPR300PRO

First rounds down the tube after sighting in, 190gr Hornady Subsonic 300BLK. Small Round Steel at ~100 Yards.

Surprisingly uneventful so far. I recall hearing somewhere, “You’re not horny, you’re just bored” and it seems to be true.

One possible change: My sleep quality has been absolutely terrible this past week. No unusual dreams, or anything like that though. I’m just getting half my usual amount and in smaller chunks. Im not sure if they’re connected because this isn’t the only variable change in my life.

I have been unofficially participating in "no-fap/no-porn" November and following this thread.  

I actually started a couple of days before November and yesterday morning had some fun with the wife, and for the first time in a while, I found myself really ready to go a second round but she had already left for work.  

I guess I'm now doing "no-porn" November.

Next best thing, Rumble or youtube embeding. BTW what kind of group size are you looking at with the sub hornady rounds at 100?

Damn, there goes the technicality of all the sex my wife and I had in our 20s and 30s.

Same here.

Yeah I went to bed at 11 and woke up at 6 but my Fitbit says I only slept like 3.75 hours.

Found a site. Compresses the hell out of it, but you get the point.

Video of Shooting SPR300 Pro

Haven’t actually attempted to group it yet. Will do during the day when I have a chance to run different types of ammo including handloads down the tube.

In this case I was pinging a small four inch or so steel circle at just under 100 yards.

DAY 7

My brain definitely wants to give up today. Gotta stay busy.

Went to Aldi
Cleaned out garage
Did laundry
Went to Lowes
Painted new baseboards
Mowed lawn
Cleaned around the house

I've noticed I haven't slept as well, but I've been going to bed earlier. My mind feels clearer though.

Been cleaning the house, marking off stuff on the hunny do list, and purging some stuff I don't use anymore for money to buy more gun stuff

My busy work was changing the u-joints on my dads new-to-him 04 wrangler.  Come to find out, the vibration he felt at 60 was because the hardtop had no fastening hardware in the rear.

Helping the wife finish the greenhouse so she can grow things over the winter. No fap going strong. Intimacy with the wife going strong.

I just remembered a tip for quitting smoking that may be relevant here. When you get the urge, do something else to occupy your mind for 5-10 minutes and the urge will have passed.

Also @narphenal instead of commemorative pmags, you should do commemorative d60’s since they look like a you know what.

Like others mentioned, my quality of sleep has been lacking a bit, but I do find I fall asleep sooner. Also seem to be waking up earlier too.

The wife seems to be a fan of the extra attention so far too.

Gentlemen, I have failed you.