Posted: 1/23/2014 1:12:43 PM EDT
| Some may have seen my thread asking about seroquel. In that thread I told how I sold all my guns. My depression and anxiety are so bad that I cant go a moment without planning out a suicide attempt with whatever is handy. I am on the suicide prevention hotline constantly and have not even been cleared to return to work. If you or anyone you know is suffering from depression or any kind of mental illness. Be there for them the best you can and take it very seriously if suicide is mentioned or thought about. I am fighting for my life everyday. Its a very bad feeling not to be able to trust yourself and to be terrified of yourself. |
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God dang, buddy. If you need anything, please IM me and I'll call you. I know I don't know you, but that makes it easier to talk sometimes, ya know?  Same here. Just PM but please be aware I'm pretty slow to respond to PM's. For some reason I just never notice the icon change. I hope you've looked at inpatient treatment. |
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Prayers sent your way. Have you gone from the planning stage to execution stage? And no pun intended. Are you working on doing it? Keep working on living! Last week I tried to slit my wrist (Didnt go deep enough and was stopped by a friend before I could try again) and overdosed on aterax and zoloft. Did not know that mixture would not kill me at the time. So yes I have already gone past the planning stage. One reason the suicide hotline checks in on me daily and sometimes every 2 hours. |
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Some may have seen my thread asking about seroquel. In that thread I told how I sold all my guns. My depression and anxiety are so bad that I cant go a moment without planning out a suicide attempt with whatever is handy. I am on the suicide prevention hotline constantly and have not even been cleared to return to work. If you or anyone you know is suffering from depression or any kind of mental illness. Be there for them the best you can and take it very seriously if suicide is mentioned or thought about. I am fighting for my life everyday. Its a very bad feeling not to be able to trust yourself and to be terrified of yourself. Godspeed. |
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Does it have something to do with a girl or money issues? Woman I was with for almost 6 years broke up with me over a text. The day before I found the engagement ring I wanted to buy her and started planning out how to propose. I spent the week of christmas and new years in West pines ( psychiatric ward in Wheat ridge CO) She did not visit me on either holiday. Lost my apartment and good chunk of savings. |
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Some may have seen my thread asking about seroquel. In that thread I told how I sold all my guns. My depression and anxiety are so bad that I cant go a moment without planning out a suicide attempt with whatever is handy. I am on the suicide prevention hotline constantly and have not even been cleared to return to work. If you or anyone you know is suffering from depression or any kind of mental illness. Be there for them the best you can and take it very seriously if suicide is mentioned or thought about. I am fighting for my life everyday. Its a very bad feeling not to be able to trust yourself and to be terrified of yourself. Listen to me very carefully, buddy. I've been where you are. I know what a bullet looks like from the wrong end of my USP40C... DON'T DO IT. IT'S NOT WORTH IT. If I had been stupid enough to carry through, I wouldn't have my current lovely wife, and I'd never see my kids again. You have things to live for. You just have to believe that. Hang in there... |
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Woman I was with for almost 6 years broke up with me over a text. The day before I found the engagement ring I wanted to buy her and started planning out how to propose. I spent the week of christmas and new years in West pines ( psychiatric ward in Wheat ridge CO) She did not visit me on either holiday. Lost my apartment and good chunk of savings. Quoted:
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Does it have something to do with a girl or money issues? Woman I was with for almost 6 years broke up with me over a text. The day before I found the engagement ring I wanted to buy her and started planning out how to propose. I spent the week of christmas and new years in West pines ( psychiatric ward in Wheat ridge CO) She did not visit me on either holiday. Lost my apartment and good chunk of savings. I knew it! What you need is a good whore (with skills). Common Arfcomers cant we get this guy a trip to the Bunny Ranch? |
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I used to think about it. I would even imagine what it would be like in those final moments.
When I finally chose to believe that there was no afterlife, I realized I could never do it. No matter how shitty life is, I'll take every second of it that I can. Anything is better than oblivion. Anything. |
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I know exactly how you feel.......been walking that road. Yep, been there myself. Homeless, jobless, bankrupt and going through a divorce all at the same time. It was real tempting at times, but I finally saw that it as a poorly thought out permanent solution to a minor temporary problem. Basically I decided I wasn't going to let the fuckers win. OP SEEK WHATEVER HELP YOU NEED! Hell go to your local hospital and have yourself admitted for 72 hrs or whatever it takes. IT WILL GET BETTER. If you need meds GET THEM AND TAKE THEM. No shame in saving a life no matter how you do it. Even if it's your own. |
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Last week I tried to slit my wrist (Didnt go deep enough and was stopped by a friend before I could try again) and overdosed on aterax and zoloft. Did not know that mixture would not kill me at the time. So yes I have already gone past the planning stage. One reason the suicide hotline checks in on me daily and sometimes every 2 hours. Quoted:
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Prayers sent your way. Have you gone from the planning stage to execution stage? And no pun intended. Are you working on doing it? Keep working on living! Last week I tried to slit my wrist (Didnt go deep enough and was stopped by a friend before I could try again) and overdosed on aterax and zoloft. Did not know that mixture would not kill me at the time. So yes I have already gone past the planning stage. One reason the suicide hotline checks in on me daily and sometimes every 2 hours. I don't know your situation but remember life isn't as bad as it seems right now. My brother's suicide nearly destroyed my parents. IM if you want to discuss. |
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Hang in there man and remember you have nothing to be ashamed of and you have done nothing wrong, mental illness is in fact an illness just like any other illness.
Please make sure you get psychotherapy along with the medication, using both together greatly increases the outcome. |
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Last week I tried to slit my wrist (Didnt go deep enough and was stopped by a friend before I could try again) and overdosed on aterax and zoloft. Did not know that mixture would not kill me at the time. So yes I have already gone past the planning stage. One reason the suicide hotline checks in on me daily and sometimes every 2 hours. Quoted:
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Prayers sent your way. Have you gone from the planning stage to execution stage? And no pun intended. Are you working on doing it? Keep working on living! Last week I tried to slit my wrist (Didnt go deep enough and was stopped by a friend before I could try again) and overdosed on aterax and zoloft. Did not know that mixture would not kill me at the time. So yes I have already gone past the planning stage. One reason the suicide hotline checks in on me daily and sometimes every 2 hours. Suicide is a very permanent solution to a very temporary problem. Please seek medical help. No matter how hopeless you think things are it is only a chemical imbalance and it can be treated. Hang in there, and get medical help. it won't take much to make you start feeling a whole lot better. I had a friend who end through the same thing and refused help or a while…..Once he started with the medication it started to turn his life round within days 
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