Posted: 8/25/2006 10:38:17 AM EDT
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Yesterday I lost my best friend and the love of my life. We were to be married in July of 2007, and we were busy working to make a life together. We making plans for Thanksgiving with my family and Christmas with her family. We were cleaning up her house to make room for me this fall. We were going to go this weekend to buy a bed together. As she goes to her rest, she takes my heart and all of my hopes and plans for the future. For now, I am hollow, but the love her friends are sharing with me is slowly filling my heart again. My parents are coming today, and her parents will arive tomorrow. My friends at work have checked on me several times since I left yesterday and my friend and boss stayed with me last night until after 10 p.m. When we have taken her to her final resting place with her family, I will know she will never be alone again. I am so blessed and grateful to have shared the past ten months with her, and my heart is happy that her friends and family know she found happiness with me. She passed in her sleep Thursday morning and was found on the sofa with the television on and the remote control in her lap. I called twice yesterday and left her a voicemail message before the phone was answered around 2:00 p.m. by the local police who asked me to come to the house. They wouldn't tell me what had happened until I arrived, and a police chaplain was here to tell me and to get additional information on her family. Wednesday, she went to lunch with me and drank a frozen coke while I ate. We hugged and kissed before I left to go back to work. Around 9:30 p.m. I called her and we talked for a few minutes. Our last words to each other were "I love you." She is survived by four dogs, her parents, grandparents, aunts and uncles, cousins and many friends who miss her greatly. I want to urge everyone to tell everyone they love how much they love them, and if you have old hurts that are keeping you from expressing your love with someone, set them aside and reach out with your heart. Goodbye my love. I miss you. Tom |
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Tom My prayers are with you, your families and friends! Know this my friend... What God brings you to, He will bring you through! To everyone else: If you knew you had 24 hours left to live... Who would you call? What would you say? WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR??????? Do not be afraid of dying. Be afraid of not living before you do! GOD BLESS YOU ALL! |
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Thanks, everyone. We took her to Oklahoma and she was buried with her great-grandparents. I got my first real night's sleep last night in two weeks. I've been waking up in the mornings and crying. I don't know when that will end. I'm lonely and confused. I worked half days Thursday and Friday, and that helped a lot. I'm walking every morning with one of the dogs, and that's helping too. Whenever I'm asked how I'm doing, I can only say I'm hanging in there. I'm sure it will get better over time. Everything else in life does, so this is probably no exception. Tom |