Holy shit... I don't know how I missed this other than I've been effectively living in a cave for damn ever.
I've been married only half the time, but losing my wife would take me out at the knees. I don't really have the words to express what I'm feeling. Anything about "my sympathies" feels hollow and useless... I'm sorry, man. I wish there was something I could say or do that would be helpful, but I know there isn't, not really. Words don't fix that sort of hurt.