Ok, bear with me here for a minute. I'd like to hear input from other officers, but need to give the back story first. Last night I was called in with some other team members from CERT (Corrections Emergency Response Team). We are not the same type of CERT you saw in the New York escape and others. We are much closer in tactics and equipment to a standard LE SWAT team. Anyway, we got called to go hunt down an absconder from a work release center after their absconder team was pulled off the case. The reason was because this particular offender has been posting pictures on social media of him with guns, taunting the police, etc. On a previous arrest this offender tried to run over an officer with a car and was in turn shot by said officer. He now has a vendetta with police. He had approximately 9 months remaining on his sentence but an escape warrant has been issued which would add 8 years minimum mandatory to his sentence. While interviewing numerous players in the investigation, they all said this offender has made it known that he is not going back to prison without a gun fight. Upon hearing this and knowing the particular area of the city we were about to hit, I was instantly filled with an anxiety. I didn't go into the black, but I was definitely in the red. I started sweating, heart racing, nauseous, etc. Now this is the first time we've been on the street in a long while, and certainly the first time we've been told to expect a gun fight. My question is, how many others experience this when going to a call you know has the potential to be more dangerous? Is this a normal feeling, and if so, how do you harness it? I have to be honest and say that I was more anxious about this situation than my time spent in Iraq and Afghanistan.
My best friend is a county police officer and I talked to him last night after we wrapped up. He told me that he's had the same feelings but not until after a particularly high risk call. He says that I was just overthinking and over analyzing the scenario, basically expecting the absolute worst. I just want to get some clarification, make sure I'm not losing it so that I don't become a detriment to my team or myself. What do you guys think?